Oh my gosh, i'm so annoyed with people lately. Yes I know that they have figured out how to put Dustin's accident behind them and "move on", to them I say... good for you but......There is a difference between me and you..I am Dustin's mother and I never will "move on" They can hide from it because he was not a constant in their life.When your life is built around somebody and then they are snatched from you your body cannot help but to scream for them. I DO know it has been 10 months and I do get the fact that they are OK with it.I'm not asking them to hate Wednesdays or to ball up in a corner and cry all day on the 23rd of each month.I am asking them to UNDERSTAND that those days are difficult on me and to accept my behavior.If I want to scream and cry in the middle of the floor,not get dressed, or refuse to answer the phone these should be seen as OK. It is not about you but what I need at that moment. The loss of Bubba is something that affects every aspect of my life now and forever.Every morning there is 1 child missing to get ready for school,I plate short at meals and 1 face hidden on holidays. I will never be "normal" or be better.I will always cry,long and need my son so please,please except me for the new person I was forced to become and realize that I will always LOVE my son and wish he was here. I Love you Dusty, my little man