Today I have a phone appointment with Renee Madsen. At first I was excited but now I am scared. I know how dumb that is but I am afraid that just maybe these psychics are just doing it for money.I don't know what I will do if this is the case or if Dustin does not "come through". I have so much faith in John Edwards and his gift I dont think I can handle knowing they are scammers. If this does not work out I fear I will lose all hope I have that Bubba is OK. I just NEED to know he is OK and that he knows just how much I love him.These 8 months have been pure hell.I cannot imagine what the rest of my life will be like if I have no hope that there is afterlife. Oh Please let this work out,please let me know that my little boy is still around me.The thought of him being completely gone is just to much. I love you Dustin and I hope you know just how much