This is just to much to handle.My entire world has fallen apart.I don't even know who I am anymore.Everybody keeps telling me that i'm messed up yet I feel if they could put themselves in my shoes for a moment they WOULD understand.In a blink of an eye I lost everything.From the moment the DR. told us I have been forced to watch my world shatter.Rob and I are the farthest from 1 another as we have ever been and Robyn(i feel)just hates me.My family and friends have all left.I guess it was just to hard to deal with me, so I am left all alone to deal with it.The 1 person I felt I could rely on to say"this is normal, you are normal" now says....I am stuck in my grief with an anger issue, and top that off with denial.I totaly feel abandoned.How can I learn to deal with this if nobody is willing to help me? I know that nobody will ever truely understand what I am going through but damn can't they at least try?I would like to be able to tell someone just how I am feeling but I know I never can because I don't need that kind of judgement, they already make me feel like an outsider and that "i'm not good enough" So I just shut my mouth and deal the best way I know how. I miss you Dustin with all my heart and I hope to see you someday soon until then please know how much I love you