These last few months have been pure hell. I have been thru so much I am just plain tired of it.I just don't want to do this.
- I don't want to wake up every morning with this sick feeling.
-I don't want my arms to ache like this for the little boy I know I can never hold .
- I don't want to see the pity in peoples eyes when the talk to me.
- I don't want to relive that night daily and try to fiqure out what I could of did differently.
- I don't want to keep seeing those images daily.
- I don't want to daily hear the Dr. say T.O.D.
- I don't want to see those horrible images of Dustin when someone says his name
- I don't want to daily hear Dr. Abear say there is no reason he is not here .
- I don't want to feel like I cheated Rob out of his son.
- I don't want to feel Like it is all my fault.
- I don't want to feel like my friends and family know it is my fault and thats why they don't come around.
- I don't want to feel like Robyn knows it's my fault and thats why shes made at me.
- I don't want to feel like GOD took him from me to teach me a lesson
- I don't want to feel like Dustin was cheated out of his life because of me.
- I don't want to feel like I failed Dustin by not saving him.
- I don't want to feel like I paid the ultimate price for stupidy
- I don't want to live knowing I will never get my son back
- I don't want to live knowing my perfect family is shattered
- I don't want to live with this intense pain in my chest
- I don't want to live knowing I could not safe Dustin.
I JUST DON'T WANT TO ..............