Today is a rough day for me. I can’t stop crying I miss Dusty so much. I am a broken woman and I know nothing I do can fix that. So why try? I am so tired of feeling like this. I have looked back on my life to try and find what I did so wrong to deserve this. Is this the punishment for cheating on a test? That little white lie I told….was it bigger than I thought. Did I take God’s name in vain one to many times? What did I do that told GOD the only way to teach me my lesson was to take my child. As a parent nothing and I mean nothing my child did would call for this type of punishment. . I just don’t understand….Why me? Why my son? I just want this pain to stop. I never knew I could hurt so much for so long but here I am 2 months away from the 2 year mark….2 years of living in hell..