Today is another rough day for me. I have tried everything I know to "snap" out of this.These thoughts and images keep running thru my head and I can't seem to stop them.I find myself worrying about everything.Is Dustin scared, is he cold,is he lonely,I need to know he is OK. All I can think of is Dustin standing next to my dad crying and asking "when's mom coming".I have been told by several people that he's OK but, let's face it...they don't know. I am beginning to think that they are just saying he is OK to shut me up.I don't know how to get pass this.How does a mother stop worrying about her child?How do you make you heart realize your little boy doesn't need you? How do you "let go" of your child when every part of your body is screaming for them?I don't know, I don't know how to do this! I just want the images to stop,the thoughts to go away, the pain to end.I just want my son!!!