Today is one of those days that the sadness completely over takes me and once again i find myself pleading with God to make this just a horrible dream.I just can't shake this feeling. I just need to know he is OK.I sit and think about all the signs he has sent to show this to me but...I guess I just need to hear the words. I need to know he is OK, that he knows how much I love and miss him..and that he forgives me,forgives me for not saving him..I'm so sorry Bubba, i'm so sorry that when you needed me the most, i failed you.I'm sorry please know i love you