I have been waiting to write about this because I wasn't sure how it would unfold. Last month I entered the WE tv John Edward Soul Song Contest. I had to write an essay about Dustin and my relationship. I woke up one morning and the essay just came to me...i knew it had to be about how many children I have, I wanted everyone to know that I am still Dustin's mother and always will..... A few weeks later I recieved a letter saying I was one of the 3 finalist..I was shocked, I will have a song about my little man, a way to remind everyone that he IS still with us. The letter also said that the finalist would speak to Cindy(song writer) and based on their interview a grand prize winner would be chosen(get their song on John Edward show)My call was today, I can't even begin to say how nervous I was. I was more scared about how I was going to show them just how great Dustin is than saying something stupid. As the phone rang I asked Dustin to help me, help me portray him the way he would want to be, and I know he did. I think the call went well, I got to tell them stories about Dustin and for those few minutes.I felt normal....I was just another mother bragging about her son. I don't know if I will be chosen to be on John's show but I hung up the phone feeling something I haven't in so long....HOPE. I had to write about this because in days to come i wan't to be able to look back and remember the event and day that brought hope back into my life. So thank you Lauren and Cindy for giving me a reason to hope again