It has been awhile since I wrote in here. I have been trying to keep myself busy so maybe, just maybe it wouldn't hurt so much.Boy was I wrong!! No matter where I go or what I do there is always a reminder of what is missing,what I use to have. The feelings are just so intense. I miss him so,. There are times I don't know what to do but cry. Nobody realizes just how hard this is on us. I hear stories that some people think I "need" help and I'm doing it wrong..what the heck is that? I'm sorry I'm doing what I need to do to survive. I don't want to be rude but....unless you have lost a child keep your mouth shut and don't give me your crappy advice. For the record I am seeing someone about this and ... I AM GRIEVING THE RIGHT WAY!!! if there is such a thing. I am learning that there is no way to advoid this, you must go through the grief. Yea it has taken me awhile but atleast I am doing it. So please instead of judging me, just hold my hand, let me cry and remember Dusty with me. I am doing my best in this crappy situtation