Well today is the day where children spend the day doting on their Mother, but what happens when 1 of your children "lives" in heaven? I will tell you, you spend all day sick to your stomache and wearing your mask so your other children don't feel bad. I think I have done a good job acting today, I have bit my cheek and tongue so many times today to fight back tears that I don't think Robyn knows just how today is. I have manages to "act" like today is no big deal but believe me it hurts so bad. I am a mother of 2 children not 1 and I need them both here with me. Last night I had a dream about Dustin, a good 1 finally. I needed this dream to reassure me of his love for me and that he is still with me . Last nights dream was more than A dream, it felt so real. My son took me flying above the trees and telephone poles. I could feel his body leaning against my back and his little hands on my arms. I could actually feel the wind blowing on my body and the way the wind made my clothes flap. It was just beautiful. I told Rob about the dream and he told me it was Dustin's version of "our" hot air ballon ride and it was just for him and I for Mother's Day. Dustin and I both had the ballon ride on our list for life and the thought of him accomplishing that goal with me sent a warm feeling through my body. So today I got a gift from my little man, the feel of his touch,the sound of his laughter and a "date" all of which I have waited so long for. Someday I will take a hot air ballon ride for the both of us but it will not be a special as my mother's day gift. I love you Dusty