Tomorrow is my little man's birthday. OH God how can that be? How can it come without him? I have tried to keep myself busy doing what ever I could so I wouldn't think about it but I can deny it no longer.In 12 hours it will be the 4th. As much as I have begged and pleaded with GOD he will not send Bubba back to me or let me skip tomorrow.Ho do I get through HIS day without him. It hurts so bad, I don't even know where to get the strength to get out of bed let alone "fake" that i'm alright.How do I face family and friends tomorrow and not fall apart.I'm not stong enough to do this, damn it..I shouldn't have to. I remember his birthday last year, he had 3 parties got a new bike ,baseball glove,toys and clothes and this year all I could get him was 2 little angels for his plot.How is that fair, no toys for my child. I hate this,I hate the pain that circulates thru my body,I hate that life continues , but most of all I HATE THAT HE'S NOT HERE!!! OH God why do you continue to turn your back on me ?What did I do to deserve this?please return my son, don't you see how I need him or do you just not care? Please,please don't let tomorrow come without him.