Last night I had another dream about Dustin. Usually these dreams give me a little peace but this one was different. In it I asked him if he was ready to come home. Dustin looked at me with such a sad face and said no, he couldn’t, and then with the biggest puppy dog eyes he asked me if I loved and missed him. I scooped him up into my arms and told him of course I love and miss you with all my heart. Dustin then burst into tears and said...” I miss you so much” and with that he vanished… I sat up in bed crying and have cried all day long…my child misses me and there is nothing I can do about it. As a mother I am suppose to wipe his tears away and make everything better, yet I can’t. I have asked several people if they thought Dustin was O.K. …of course they said yes but how the heck do they know? I know they only said yes to make me feel better but I don’t. Then again if they said no, what could I do about it? All I can picture today is Bubba standing alone crying for me. I don’t know how to handle the thought of him being so lonely and the fact he needs me…..as much as I need him