After the accident I was told that with time the pain lessens and the key was to stay busy so you don't think about what has happened. I now know these people have lied to me. It has been 14 months and it still hurts so bad.I have tried reading,doing puzzles,long walks and gardening and the images are just as vivid as in May.I have come to realize there are just some things you can't outwalk,out think or deny happening. I miss Dustin every second of every day,i miss his laugh,his smile,his voice I miss everything about him.I still don't understand why my boy.I know i will never get the answer to this but I cannot let it go.There has to be a reason and I need to know it.I just want my family back to the way it was, i want to feel whole again,I want to see the sparkle back in Rob's eyes, I want to share Dustin stories,I want to see him graduate,get married,have a family....I want my son back