I am so tired of having to act like nothing has happened and that everythink is A OK. It is not, my whole world has shattered, it hurts to even breath. So why do people look for me to "act" like everythig is normal? I am tired of this act. I wish they would just shut up,think about what we have been through and allow us to FEEL the way we want. I don't have to smile,laugh and be chipper if I don't feel like it. If this bothers you than to bad....stay away.... and please,please stop making me feel abnormal for the way I am...I didn't ask for this......so what you see is what you get...BACK OFF!!!!! and for the record....I HAVE 2 children, a girl AND a boy and I DON'T have the need for anymore.You need to realize that Dustin can't be replaced so keep the ideas about me having another 1 or adopting 1 to yourself.This only makes me feel that in YOUR eyes he doesn't/didn't matter. Dustin will always be my 1 and only son,my baby,my little man so please stop trying to take this from me. I HAVE LOST ENOUGH!!!!!!