I joined a grief website today called Loss of a young child.I told the message board about Dusty and the accident,it felt good to talk to ppl that really understand what I am going through.They all remarked about how beautiful Bubba is and they also talked about his eyes. I remember telling Bubba that he had long eyelashes like me because he probably started out as a girl but I WILLED him to be a boy.He loved to hear that.I so wanted a son and from the time I was told I was pregnant I knew it was going to be a boy.I had the perfect family, a hubby that loved me and his children, a girly girl and a boy that was all boy.How can I ever be happy again when I lost so much?