Dear Corinna, I saw your story about your sweet Dustin on a recording of John Edward tonight and it surely got to me. I lost my (almost) 5 year old son Michael May 2008 tragically. The toughest question I also get is "how many children do you have?". Michael was my special little boy. He loved me like nobody else in the world. He loved his Transformers, Spiderman and cars but he would stop anything in a moment's notice the second I walked into the room and run up screaming "mommy" and give me a big hug. He truly was my soul mate. It's like a kick in the gut... every single day. I ask myself how I could have been so blessed, and yet so cursed by losing him .I want to reach out if you need a friend that truly understands. Like you I know the feeling of loneliness. I want to understand more about where Michael is and how to connect with him. Besides memories, that's all I have left. And although he will never ever be happier where he is than with me, and vice versa, someday I hope I can accept the fact this isn't what I signed up for. sending peace your way,