Corrina- Tonight I watched Cross Country and watched your son's TV debut. What eyes that young man has. It's now 1:45 a.m. here in Texas and I found myself reading through your journal unable to control my tears for a mother in so much endless pain. I realize that to some degree I'm one of those people who you wrote about in "This Mask". My step-son lost a very dear friend in an auto accident three years ago. She was an only child and the most amazing singer and personality and was on her way to a performing school in NY when she finished high school. Why am I telling you this, I'm not quite sure except to tell you that although I had only spoke to her mother a handful of times I found myself not knowing what to say to her when I did in fact meet up with her in our semi small town. My lack of conversation is/was in no way because of my lack of caring. In fact being a mother of an adopted 6 year old daughter of my own I think of her even after three years at least weekly. Every single time I see a red VW Beetle or hear a song she sang makes me think of my own daughter and how thankful I am to have her. Then I feel so stinking guilty for even thinking like that. I think for me there would be nothing to comfort that indescribable pain. My heart hurts so much for you and my son's friend’s mother. I get to wake up to my child so what can I possibly say or do to make a mother with such loss feel better or better yet not feel worse? So I am so sorry for my actions and everybody who has made your pain even worse. I read how you just need somebody to cry with and I'm not sure if you are up at this hour but know that I cried and cried tonight for you and your families’ pain. Also you talked about random acts of kindness. I find you incredible to be in so much pain but yet request something so beautiful. Those random acts will be made for in honor of your son who has made a mark on me Corrina. I pray I haven't said anything to hurt you. Your site honoring Dustin has been truly touching I just hate that something caused it to even exist. My step-daughter and Robyn share the same birthday and I hope you found some happiness on her special day knowing you have a beautiful daughter. You are in my thoughts. Angela